Here in Person

My depression is not something
I speak too freely about
It's not something that I
Want to stand up and shout out
But the truth of the matter is
Deep down inside
I am screaming and shouting
And going out of my mind

It's easier to doom scroll
Than to actually think
You ask me what's wrong
I simply reply, 'nothing'
My mind is overwhelmed
Millions of thoughts in turmoil
It's so hard for me to say
What is draining my soul

My cries of desperation
You cannot hear
But they come out
By way of my tears
My words cannot, cannot form
What I'm trying to say
I am Here in person
but yet I feel far away

It's not that I don't love you
Or trust to tell you these things
But I don't want to burden you
With my negative feelings
I don't want you ever
To think differently of me
Because I'm struggling with my mind
Mentally falling on my knees

My cries of desperation
You cannot hear
But they come out
By way of my tears
My words cannot, cannot form
What I'm trying to say
I am Here in person
but yet I feel far away

Your love keeps me grounded
And holds me so tight
When I'm unsure and unsteady
In a dark and troubled self-fight
I appreciate your understanding
And for always being by my side
Your love keeps me safe
On this emotional roller coaster ride

My cries of desperation
You cannot hear
But they come out
By way of my tears
My words cannot, cannot form
What I'm trying to say
I am Here in person
But yet I feel far away

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FIRE

     🌙     

 TRUTH

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 REBIRTH